oleh adibahabdullah
Assalamualaikum.
I read a particular ‘revelatory’ confessional piece from a genius-turned-callgirl. Among the parts that caught my attention was the part about her buying an expensive Gucci dress and handbag (expensive might not be the word, humongously extravagant could fit better). She was very happy about that, and bragged at length about how much she can earn with *simply* her curves and smiles.
I read the magazines on the kitchen table - Now!, Heat, Closer, and whatnots - with glamorous photos and latest gossips of artists whose names I can hardly identify. There were handbags worth thousands of pounds and winter coats worth a few more thousands. One celebrity mum buying designer baby-clothes and having her twin kids’s bedroom being done with the highest-quality furnitures. Celebrity couples having ‘lavish 2 mil weddings’ and ‘modest GBP 500 000 weddings’. The list is endless.
I wonder, how much can one buy with all the money that one have? Like the callgirl, she can buy one Gucci dress and one handbag - the man she escorted, actually, bought them for her - but there would still be loads of expensive stuffs out there – the kind enjoyed by the celebrities - that she wouldn’t be able to buy. If her enjoyment lies in bits and pieces of the life of the popular and wealthy, how tiny those bits and pieces are.
Even the celebrities are not rich enough to buy everything. The Middle East sheiks are not rich enough to buy everything. Seeing them recklessly spending money on luxury upon luxury made me wonder, where does the value lie in their purchases? People used to associate diamonds with true love because of their rare quality and exceptionally high price – used to, note it. Now for every item of price – price, not value – there would be another item more pricey, more glamorous, more stylish, and within a few days it would be out of fashion. Where is the ultimate contentment that is supposed to be represented by the glittering glamour of self accompanied by material abundance and modernity, if the glitter itself is transient and relative, neither static nor stable, changing according to trends and fashion. What we’re left with are a sorry bunch of people desperately trying to buy everything of price and effectively possessing nothing of value.
Materialistic lifestyle is just one example of a miserable self-worshipping lifestyles. It’s all about the self. Everything one does, one does for one’s own satisfaction. Bad news is, worshipping the self provides a very narrow scope to derive meaning from. It’s all about the self, one’s own self, how wide and meaningful can that be, when that teeny weeny self is juxtaposed against the whole big bad world with all its vastness, harshness and severity?
For whom are we actually living our lives?
All these toiling and studying is to gain social stature and financial prominence in the future. One wants to look good, so that one will be attractive and loved. One wants to say all the right things to make people happy, so that one will be popular and admired. One wants money, a lot of it, so that one can buy everything that one wants, a lot of beautiful clothes, have a grand house and a gorgeous car to go with it – but then again, where does it all end?
Where would be the point of ultimate satisfaction? Where is the real value, qualitatively and quantitatively? As someone once said, however many clothes that we have, we can only wear one at a time. However big one’s house is, one can only live in a small space at a particular time. The self is not that big a target. A small target can only provide small gratification, however large the resource – money, wealth, status - is.
Depending on people’s admiration – as if one person worshipping the self is not enough, more worshippers are needed, and the source is from the outside - is more fallacious, considering how small an individual’s self is in contrast to the wide options out there to choose from. Admirers can always shift their positions and agree with somebody else, or they can simply come and go at will, or the person itself would be forced to leave the admirers either by ordinary or extraordinary circumstances. After being crushed and left by the admirers, the residue would be the self, as wobbly and boneless as a jellyfish, so desperate to gain recognition from the other Selves outside that it forgets the outside Selves are just as helpless as it is in the hands of the Lord. Depending on the helpless only makes the self worse than the helpless.
For whom are we living actually? For the self? People often say – “I do this for my own satisfaction, because I loved to do it, because it makes me happy.†It’s all the self, one’s own self. Me, me, me. The very Self that those who seek to purify the heart and embark upon the sacred path towards the Lord seek to destroy, aiming for its ultimate destruction, for they knew that they would never be able to obliterate the Self entirely, and they hope that in the attempt they would finally reach the degree of detachment from the World and the bodily Self enough for the spirit to soar above the mundane plane of existence.
I’m talking metaphysical here. OK, I’ll come down to Mother Earth. The problem is, men are too self-centred. Justifying actions and thoughts on the self would imply two things : 1) chances are, the impacts are either not significant because of the small justification behind it – the self, or the impacts can be disastrous to the majority because of the small size of the population considered when making the decision – the self.
2) the gratification from the action, even for one’s own self, might seem virtually large but be tiny in value, because the only person meant to enjoy it is the tiny self.
Making life more worthwhile, more full of value, through living it for causes greater than the self in majesty might be one good idea to solve this predicament. Well, if one self is too small, why not increase the number to many, many more selves? Don’t just live life for one’s own self, live it for others as well. Don’t just make decisions with one’s own self under consideration, think about many, many other selves as well. Think about the family, the ummah, the animals and the plants, the deteriorating ozone layers, the poors in Africa, the world. Spend resources that belong to the self for others. Make others happy. Do voluntary work. Give charity.
I guess the celebrities are trying to add more value to their lives by alloting some resources for their charitable deeds. Sadly, in a lot of cases they are still too much preoccupied with their own selves that the value added from the invested resources shrink in magnitude when contrasted with the amount of resources spent, still for the enjoyment of the self. It is not how much resources spent for others per se that determines its overall value, it is the amount of resources spent for others relative to what is spent solely for the self.
When talking about values and meaning of life, another question would inevitably issue. Are those values seeked merely as a target within the physical plane, to please the heart and content the soul while living in this world, or is there another plane of existence, within which there are ultimate values to be reached, and towards which the spirit would wish to soar? Of course, the physical, material self is far from worthy enough to be propel itself on its own to get there. Even the values obtained from serving other selves, from spending resources for other selves would not suffice, for as stated earlier, all the selves in the world are equally helpless, equally trapped within the physical plane and all its rules of perceived reality. To transcend this boundary, the self has to discard itself as a focus and serve the One, whose creatures include time and space itself, whose domain is beyond any discernible by mundane physical perceptions.
All the effort of making others happy, of adding value to one’s life by serving others, are meant to strengthen one’s own spirituality and detach it from the confinement of the selfish Self. The pursuit of value is made complete and ultimate when it is dedicated to fulfil the orders and rules set by the One, hence giving it the highest gratification of all, Allah’s pleasure and his Jannah. Al-fauz-ul-kabir.
This is when we say, “Everything that I do, I do it for Allah, lillahi ta’ala.â€
Wealth and children are an adornment of the life of the world. But the deeds of lasting righteousness are the best in the sight of your Lord in reward, and far better a source of hope. – Al-Kahf, 18:46
And remember,
Say, (O Muhammad) : “Shall we tell you who will be the greatest losers in respect of their works? It will be those whose effort went astray in the life of the world and who believe nevertheless that they are doing good. Those are the ones who refused to believe in the revelations of their Lord and that they are bound to meet Him. Hence, all their deeds have come to naught, and We shall assign no weight to them on the Day of Resurrection. – Al-Kahf, 18:103-105
And Allah always knows best.
meow~

Keris Melayu
Umum mengetahui bahawa kekalahan BN, baru-baru ini adalah disebabkan kepincangan PM, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi. Beliau tidak harus menyalahkan sesiapa kecuali diri sendiri kerana membiarkan diri diperalatkan oleh ahli politik muda berbakat besar, tetapi sangat rakus dalam mengejar kuasa dan populariti, Khairy Jamaluddin.

